I have been having baby fever since just a few months into my dating relationship with my husband. I was eighteen at the time. Before that, I had envisioned myself either being in the Army or being a flight attendant for Delta (I kid you not!) but then I got married and started a family. So yeah, I’ve been wanting babies for a long time. Eighteen years now, off and on. But mostly on, lol. If I could have had ten kids, I probably would have. I LOVE being pregnant and having little ones.
My husband and I have always planned on having five children. He grew up with four siblings and I had three, so five is what we were/are both comfortable with. That being said, I never thought I’d feel “done.” I thought I would be sad and resentful that I couldn’t have any more after five. But I am honestly starting to really want to be done, which makes feel me so relieved. I’ve been happily thinking about getting to enjoy (or just get through, if kidney stones show up again!) ONE more pregnancy and birth (repeat c-section or VBAC?! probably c-section) and then being DONE! I never ever EVER thought I’d look forward to being done making and having babies. But I am.
I now know I’m going to be fine once baby number five comes along because I’ve already been researching having a tubal ligation (getting my tubes tied) during/after his or her birth. If that isn’t “ready to be done,” I don’t know what is!
It isn’t because I’m unhappy with my kids or anything like that, or because these early baby months are challenging – I’ve done all this before. No, it’s something else….I just feel like I’m approaching the baby making finish line. And it feels amazing because I thought I’d never be happy once having and raising babies was over. But I now know I will be!
Where’s your baby-making finish line?
Are you far from it, getting close, or have you passed it already?