Even though I have to admit that I felt some significant relief after finding out that I was no longer pregnant (the realization that no, I wouldn’t have morning sickness, fatigue, bladder issues, low platelets, another c-section, etc!), I have also been dealing with a great loss. 😞
Not only do I seem to be truly mourning but the drop in hormones I’m experiencing feels a lot like baby blues, or even depression. I just feel sort of defeated. And sad.
I’m not sure what I need. I don’t want to have to go back to my doctor tomorrow and get more blood work done to check my hCG levels, because it makes me so sad to think about pregnancy. I wasn’t even WANTING to be pregnant again right now, but I’m still sad. When I’m at WalMart and I see the aisle of tests and kits, good grief, the loss I feel is enormous.
It must be the hormones, it’s got to be.
I’m sorry, what a downer of a post.
*Update: Test Results (how it all ended)*