It’s surprising me how much I’m enjoying playing Minecraft with the kids. The whole look of the game always annoyed me, but it’s actually quite fun. :) In my world, I am currently living with Samuel (he likes having his own tree house but prefers to live with someone, aww) and Maggie and Joshua are our neighbors. They are both really talented in making houses! I am seriously impressed by their architectural design!
Elizabeth got her very first pair of shoes yesterday! We found them at Toys R Us/Babies R Us and once they were on her feet, she got to get down and walk in a store for the first time. She was in heaven! Aww, she was so happy to be able to be checking everything out. :) The shoes have an interesting design, they remind me of little canoes the way they curve. You can’t tell it while she’s wearing them, but on the shelf they look odd. I love that they seem to be perfect for babies’ feet because of that odd design. They are a size five, hopefully she can wear them for the whole summer – I’ve no idea how fast her feet grow as this is the first time I’ve put anything but socks on them.
I bought a bouquet of flowers at Publix yesterday. I cleared out the dining room of boring, unattractive homeschool planning stuff (black table, books galore, etc) and now it’s back to being just our table and chairs and the highchair. We needed some color! I was happy to find a lovely pink/purple bunch for about $4. I also saw that Kroger has a wide selection of flowers for about $5 each, so once these are past their prime, I’ll have to swing back in there to pick up some. :) I used to think that cut flowers were a waste of money, but now I think they add to the beauty and charm of a space and I really enjoy them!
A few days ago, I was talking with Maggie about how I really don’t watch YouTube even though I would love to have a vlogger or two to watch like I used to, and she suggested that I look for individual videos on topics I’m interested in and that I might find one that way. I tried it and searched for “rearranging living room” because that’s what I’d just been doing but I didn’t find anyone I clicked with. Then I tried “mom of four” and “homeschool mom of four” and ended up finding a channel I just love! They are actually a family with six kids, and they travel (move) a lot, the way we can and sometimes do because we choose to rent and homeschool. I seriously like the mom so much! :D I’ve been homeschooling quite a bit longer than her yet I am super motivated and encouraged by her videos!
Speaking of renting, our landlord brought over the updated lease yesterday and Stephen and I need to look it over, sign (maybe!) and have her come back to get it this weekend. The thing is, we’re not really that interested in committing to another whole year. It may be tricky to get her agree to giving us a loophole should we move out before twelve months is up. What we would like is to allow her to keep the security deposit as payment for skipping out early (should we decide to do that). As it is, the lease talks about a certain percentage of the remaining months, penalties, etc. Ugh, hopefully we can work this out. Both of us would like to move before this time next year.
I have been so inspired by the vlogging family that I’ve been watching on YouTube that I decided to do something quite shocking (for me anyway)… I decided to create a channel! I never thought I’d do that so I’m surprised. At first, I was daydreaming about publicly vlogging with the kids but those videos are going to be unlisted so I can share them with certain people but not the world. The idea of sharing videos of the kids with the whole of YouTube makes me uneasy and I sure don’t want to see any “dislikes!!” Anyway, the main videos that I’m planning to make (and publish publicly) are going be about homeschooling and homemaking (with kids at home all day). I really think it’s going to motivate me to spend more time and energy on their education. :)
Yesterday was my birthday. I am now just three years away from forty, lol.
My aunt and uncle, whom I love so much but rarely see, came down to Atlanta yesterday because they’re catching a flight today to Miami and then getting on a cruise ship to the Caribbean for five days. So, they texted me on Saturday to see if we were going to be home yesterday and could they come visit. :) I was so happy! But also nervous…I have a hard time with anxiety leading up to getting together with people. And they’d never been to our new house so I was even more anxious. haha But it was fine and I loved seeing them. They stayed from 1:30 until a little after 5:00, so it was a nice visit.
Exciting news: I edited my first youtube video! Maggie showed me the ropes on Saturday and I pretty much got it figured out and then did it on my own yesterday. :) The only thing I would still really love to learn how to do is speed up sections of a video (like if I’m cleaning or what not) but it’s not a straightforward thing to do apparently. :/ Anyway, I’m super happy with the way the video turned out! ^_
I searched online to find out how to speed up parts of YouTube videos and I learned! Woo hoo Now I can do different things like make food, or organize something and I can speed through the boring, tedious parts! :) I love it! I can speed vacuum or do a “ten second tidy,” lol.
So, yesterday I went to my OB/GYN because I started having the urgency to pee on Monday which got even worse yesterday. I figured I had a bladder infection, but I wasn’t sure because I’ve never had one. Well, the doctor came in and asked if I’d had a cycle since the D&C (which I haven’t but I have ovulated) and she says, okay, well the pregnancy test we did was positive so it might be that you have to pee more because of early pregnancy. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, there is a small chance that it’s hCG leftover from the miscarriage but that’s unlikely due to having had the D&C. So, back to blood work and ultrasounds but at least there’s been no bleeding! I hope, hope, hope I am pregnant. ♥
I found out that my hCG is 4833. They think that’s high for how many weeks I could be if pregnant so I have to have an ultrasound tomorrow. She said she thinks it’s more likely that I’m not pregnant and the numbers reflect my previous miscarriage. I had a d&c and it’s been seven weeks so that seems crazy but she said it’s possible. So we’re back to maybe, maybe not. Not where I want to be…
I went for the ultrasound…
OH MY WORD!!!!!!!
THIS NEWS NEEDS ITS OWN POST!!
I got the 48hr hCG results… MORE NEWS THAT REQUIRES ITS OWN POST!
I think I’ve finally wrapped my mind around the fact that I’m pregnant. haha
It’s funny, I can now, looking back, see different things that should have alerted me to the possibility of pregnancy.
1 being grossed out by meat
2 feeling more tired than normal
3 forgetting things
I’m nervous about the ultrasound tomorrow. I probably have absolutely no reason to be but, as Stephen says, I won’t feel okay until see that everything is going alright.
I have been feeling seriously pregnant, though, and it wouldn’t even make sense if there’s not a thriving baby in there! For real, I have been nauseous, super tired, really hungry in the afternoon and evening, and extremely uncomfortable nursing Elizabeth. It’s been so painful to feed her, in fact, that I’ve been working more diligently toward weaning her. She will be a year old in a few weeks so it isn’t as if it’s early to switch over to solids, I just hadn’t planned to start so early. I began weaning Maggie at 12 months and she was totally weaned by 14 months. ^_^ The boys were older; Joshua at 16 months and Samuel at 26 months. I’d had 18 months in my mind for Elizabeth originally, but things always change, don’t they? :P
So, I decided to delete my YouTube channel and create another one, this time spending a lot more time planning before putting anything up. :) I have a new name, an intro, and two videos in the works. I’m really liking the overall feel of it.
We went for the ultrasound this morning and everything looks good!! Baby jelly bean (that’s what s/he looks like anyway, lol) is measuring 6w1d and has a heartbeat of 119bpm. So my official due date is February 7, 2018. :) I was really happy while receiving the good news but it was definitely tainted by the nausea I was experiencing at the time. Yep, morning sickness is getting stronger and lasts until early afternoon, sometimes later. :( I’m thankful, though! I will happily endure pregnancy symptoms while waiting on our last baby to make his/her entrance into the world. :D
My next appointment is in two weeks when they’ll do an official OB visit (complete blood work, exam, pap smear, and another ultrasound (which will be the last until the 20 week anatomy scan)). Hopefully I’ll feel well enough to work on another Thoughts & Happenings over the next two weeks, but I definitely can’t guarantee it!
I feel like I’m in a fog, but at least it’s a happy fog. ;)